I am not going to be friends with any of you any more, but if I sort myself out in a few years, we should totally hang.
Its not you, its me.
28 May 2009
delicious. might stick the original transformers on. THEN WATCH THE REMAKE WHO KNOWS WHERE THE NIGHT WILL TAKE ME.
I've been trying to write a blog for days. But I don't know what that blog will contain exactly, all I know is that it will be magical. This is not that blog. But I really need to just write. I have a feeling that no one actually reads my blog though, so it seems pointless.
I think its a given that this will be a whiny blog, and after this I dunno if I will blog ever again, its a complete waste.
I can't complain, my life is pretty shibby you know? Apart from like 1 thing, which has completely destroyed me, but its all fine though isn't it? Can't let 1 thing ruin my life, right? I guess its human nature to just blame things on someone or something, so thats not what i'm going to do, because being human is silly. I do blame myself. But I know that is ridiculous. So I do not. Although I am a firm believer that we have a hella lot more power over our lives than we think, so deep down I do blame myself, for so many things.
Yeah hi, I have no self-esteem, I thought we met!
So today was alright! Filmed possibly the last thing we're ever going to film. Ever?! I couldn't stop thinking though, I was just worried more than anything. So very worried about the future. I don't necessarily want to talk about it and I just want to be alone, so thats what I am going to do. If you want to talk to me, I'll be appearing offline pretty much constantly. Or will I? Whatever, if you're not reading this right now, then you don't deserve to know, and you won't. And we will never ever speak again. Unless you're max - you're cool max and I know you don't read this blog but I think one day we should just elope you know? Man, being gay is an option isn't it. Wait no thats even worse. God damn shit is hard, you know what'd be cool? Ahh you probably already fucking know!
That last part was directed at all of you! All both of you readers!
Sometimes I think about how it'd be nice to have not lost contact with people who live down the street. I'm not even sure any more. I just prefer to be alone. All the time. Sorry.
At least the doctors were slightly wrong though, and I won. Yay me! Still, I need to either be my own psychologist, or go to one. But I don't like professionals. Or doctors. Or people. Or going outside. Or talking to people. Or sitting in chairs. Plus that shit is expensive, on top of everything else man. I can't, its not fair on anyone.
I just realised this has turned into less of an address to readers, and more of a peer into the mind of me, (cept you're wearing a blindfold). Are all my blogs like that? Yes probably. I don't think, I just type. I'm like that in real life sometimes too - I often just start a sentance with no idea where it will go. The favourites are 'I think...' *whatever pops into my head*, and 'I..' *whatever pops into my head*.
Fantastic. Last blog ever. I did not have fun. Time to be even more of a recluse. If anyone wants me I'll be in the fetal position!
BUT HEY AT LEAST I'M NOT DEAD GUYS WOO!
I think its a given that this will be a whiny blog, and after this I dunno if I will blog ever again, its a complete waste.
I can't complain, my life is pretty shibby you know? Apart from like 1 thing, which has completely destroyed me, but its all fine though isn't it? Can't let 1 thing ruin my life, right? I guess its human nature to just blame things on someone or something, so thats not what i'm going to do, because being human is silly. I do blame myself. But I know that is ridiculous. So I do not. Although I am a firm believer that we have a hella lot more power over our lives than we think, so deep down I do blame myself, for so many things.
Yeah hi, I have no self-esteem, I thought we met!
So today was alright! Filmed possibly the last thing we're ever going to film. Ever?! I couldn't stop thinking though, I was just worried more than anything. So very worried about the future. I don't necessarily want to talk about it and I just want to be alone, so thats what I am going to do. If you want to talk to me, I'll be appearing offline pretty much constantly. Or will I? Whatever, if you're not reading this right now, then you don't deserve to know, and you won't. And we will never ever speak again. Unless you're max - you're cool max and I know you don't read this blog but I think one day we should just elope you know? Man, being gay is an option isn't it. Wait no thats even worse. God damn shit is hard, you know what'd be cool? Ahh you probably already fucking know!
That last part was directed at all of you! All both of you readers!
Sometimes I think about how it'd be nice to have not lost contact with people who live down the street. I'm not even sure any more. I just prefer to be alone. All the time. Sorry.
At least the doctors were slightly wrong though, and I won. Yay me! Still, I need to either be my own psychologist, or go to one. But I don't like professionals. Or doctors. Or people. Or going outside. Or talking to people. Or sitting in chairs. Plus that shit is expensive, on top of everything else man. I can't, its not fair on anyone.
I just realised this has turned into less of an address to readers, and more of a peer into the mind of me, (cept you're wearing a blindfold). Are all my blogs like that? Yes probably. I don't think, I just type. I'm like that in real life sometimes too - I often just start a sentance with no idea where it will go. The favourites are 'I think...' *whatever pops into my head*, and 'I..' *whatever pops into my head*.
Fantastic. Last blog ever. I did not have fun. Time to be even more of a recluse. If anyone wants me I'll be in the fetal position!
BUT HEY AT LEAST I'M NOT DEAD GUYS WOO!
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